Frustration

Today I received an email from a Christian woman that I admire through her insights and faith on her blog. I really needed it, and if you read this CB, thanks again.

As for the other news of the day, I finally got the labs confirming that my baby is gone. I do not think I will ever go back to that office. Besides leaving me hanging, without the results for the miscarriage, they did not contact me on some other things as well. I do not think that the communication is working there at all. When I was finally called back to hear the results, the nurse said, "I brought you back here in a room so it would be more private, your levels are at a non-pregnant level".

Here is the thing, I know that at a OB office, they probably have to tell people everyday that they have lost a baby, pregnancy, fetus, embryo, whatever they want to call it. I, however, do not hear that everyday, and the lack of feeling was undescribable. They have no idea that I understand what that means. This nurse does not know that I have medical training. And just because I do, does not mean that it is any less painful to hear those words. I mean, c'mon! This same nurse is who I would have to see next time, since she only works for my provider. Guess that seals the deal...

So, since this is not the first miscarriage for me, I have decided to get checked out by a new OB here in town. There may not be any definitive answers to why, medically, this is hapenning to me, but at least I will have ruled that out.